"He Left Here A Long Time Ago"

Er and I went to see a movie by ourselves (no friends, no Eli) for the first time since, well we became mommy and daddy.

We went and saw "Blood Diamond." It was outstanding. It was well written, the cinematography is stunning, and well cast (believe it or not, Leonrdo DiCaprio is the lead. "Jack" grew up to be not "king of the world" but rather a talented actor.)

It's another film about Africa made about 6 years after the chaos is starting to settle. That seems to be the trend these days. Yet, what is staggering to me is that still it continues on, in a new way and in a new place... but the blood that gives Africa it's red soil continues to spill. I wonder what kind of film they'll make about Darfur in 10 years. I love that Hollywood is bring awareness about... I hate that our response tends to be checkbooks or shed tears. But then I come back to, what is there to be done. Er and I talked about this a bit. I kind of decided that the problem is solved one person at a time. But the more I think, the more I realize that in fact the problem can't be solved one person at a time. Rather, it's all in the hands of an all-merciful, all-sovereign God who seeks to restore the world to the utopia it was. A place of peace... a place entirely about Him. In the film, the main character says "I used to wonder if God can forgive us for what we've done to each other, to ourselves... but then I realized we're past that. He left here a long time ago." This place in which we live is just a shell of what it was created to be; but fortunately God has not forsaken us. It's especially good to remember that in this time of Advent. Certainly, there is pain. It's not going anywhere anytime soon. But there is also joy and hope in knowing that there is a God of Peace. of Justice. A God worthy to be worshiped. A God who can forgive us for what we've done to each other, to ourselves, to the paradise that He gave us, and to even His very self. And He hasn't abandoned us - that's evident.

So while I can't fix it - even one person at a time. God controls it. He uses it for Himself - in way that go so far beyond me deepest uderstanding. And I'm okay with that. I'll just let Him do what He wants to do and play my part. Because that's where the our hope lies. Not in trying to fix things, but letting them be restored. Made new. And I can't do that no matter how hard I try - so I'll let Him do it and I'll help as much as He wants me to.

Anyways, I didn't quite mean to write all of that... but there it is. Take it for what it is. But do go see the movie. People need to be aware of what goes on outside our little suburbia. Or at least, I sure as heck do. It's the best film I've seen in a very very long time. Just don't' go into it with the the same superhero complex I walked out of it with.

KP

PS - It shows the trajedy of what goes on with the capturaing/training of children to fight in the rebel armies. It will break your heart. It's probably the worst thing I've ever watched on a movie. I can't begin to imagine the horror of having Eli ripped from my arms to be broken down so he can be trained to kill me later. Praise God that He did bless me with a safe little suburbia to raise my son in. It says that there are some 200,000 children currently being used in rebel armies. Certianly that and the Darfur are things to be praying for.

PPS - If you read all of this you deserve a gold star. I like to ramble on about nothing sometimes and if got through it all you either need more to do or are extremely patient. Either way, thanks for reading. This was probably more for me than you though. Blessings.